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Atmosphere, the clouds, the sky
Breathe the same air, shelter under the same sky
Stare at the same clouds, where are you?
Peace into my mind, though I'm not feeling fine.
Drought for 2 years, will it be the third?
He's my 23rd.
Sky, be the witness for this senses
Clouds, bring along this torn pages when you crawl
Slowly, clear it all when you spit the rain out.

Are you a T or an F?

Feeler Defined

If you are an F or Feeler, you’ll base your decision making around your values and emotional clues. Feelers trust their gut and care about how actions make them feel or others feel. Feelers are easy to spot due to their warm and friendly nature often labelled as people persons.

Thinker Defined

If you are a T or Thinker, you’ll base your decision making around practical, objective criteria. Thinkers appear cold and reserved often seen as the anti-social at a conference or meeting as thinkers are more interested in finding practical solutions to problems as that is why they came in the first place. Thinkers like to be labelled realists.

Feed your curiosity with below descriptors :

Thinker
Makes decisions based on logic Objective and analytical Uses impersonal criteria for decisions Easily reprimands people Firm minded, skeptical Holds to policy Good at finding flaws Important to be right Does not need harmony When pleased, may say nothing May hurt feelings unintentionally May appear cold, unfeeling, aloof What you say is more important than how you say it!

Feeler

Decides based on how it will affect people Is it right, wrong, good, bad? Subjective criteria, situational Avoids confrontation Personal and warm, trusting Makes exceptions as needed Good at finding assets Important to please people Wants harmony with others Gives frequent positive feedback May take impersonal remarks personally May appear illogical or over emotional How you say it is as important than what you say!

So, are you a thinker or a feeler? Or maybe a feeler who thinks or a thinker who feels? :)

Be true to yourself.

Words

Some said I'm good at words. Yeah? Idk about that because what I know is that I speak my mind. I'm completely true when I write words down. I'm not much of a blogger, because if I am then I would update my blog everyday. I'm here for my lovelies. I dedicate my post to them. You know who you are. I keep my thoughts more to myself and to the blank paper. I enjoy much of a privacy. Maybe that's the reason why I prefer private party more than clubbing. Aha.

I'm in love with words. I would marry words if I could. I actually like reading dictionaries because I find it interesting, don't you think so?

Words are never enough. Words can kill and heal. Words are magic. Its funny sometimes when words can get you mad and the next moment words can soothe your soul too. Sweet words are like honey, healthy for the mind and good for the soul. So use your words wisely.

Don't waste your words when you know it's not worth it. You get what I mean?

Let The Sunlight In

The first thing I noticed in the image above is the boobs. HAHA. Right, I am explicit. My first impression was, 'Did the cartoon suffered from breast cancer?' :D Okay cut the crap off. It's show timeeee!

Shits happen in our everyday life. It makes us feel weak and when we feel weak, we feel like giving up. I've been through the dark stages over and over again. It's like a life cycle. We can't escape from our fate and we also can't change it. So what do we do then? I shall say, choose for your own fate. Yes we can choose fate. We got to think thoroughly before we act. We should know about the circumstances for what we do. Bad act will obviously ends with bad fate and vice versa. So do you understand now by what I mean we can choose our own fate? Good. Destiny is a different thing.

Usually we whine and fret about life. We just can't stop complaining about what has happened. When tragedy happen, it leaves us in sorrow. Terrible heartache, numbness, heartless, cold, nightmares, trauma, and some people can't take all the pain anymore till they think of committing suicide. But hey, freeze your brain and continue reading. Why want to commit suicide? Lets look at the bright side. :)

List out your painful memories that still bothering you. List out your happy moments that you wish it won't ends. Is your painful memories list longer than the happy moments list? If so, lets clear your thoughts. Everyone wants to live in happiness. You too, you can. Trust yourself. Ask yourself, do you want to cry and live in sorrow everyday? Do you want to cut yourself till you're 50? I don't want to, that's why I've promised to myself that I will stop eventhough its hard. I can stop if I put all my effort to stop, I must try. My friends told me that people can help me but if I refused to help myself, nobody can help. What about you dear?

Amy baby. We both are cutters. This habit made us talk to each other for the first time and since then we're best of friends. I saw the new cuts on your hand last week. That time I felt sadness creeping in me. I guess now I understand what my other friends feel when they saw new cuts on my hand. Non-cutter don't understand why we cut. That's why we get offended or angry when they talk to us about it. Now, Yusniza Dyana, your friend that you assume angel, a cutter for years, is advising you to stop.

Nightmares, loneliness, sorrow, numbness, disappointment, all the things that put you into darkness will end if you want to end them. God chose us and gave us these souls. Life is an endless task, we have the responsibilities to carry on. We don't have the rights to end our lives, the right to do so is only in His hand. You can't say I don't understand, because you know I always understand you. Try to understand your hand, it's in pain. I talked to my hand before, I remember I apologized for abusing it. I pity my hand, I pity myself. One bad habit is enough.

If you keep saying no to yourself, if you didn't fight and put all your effort to stop, then it will always be the same. You told me once before that you were born like this, weak. Let Faiqah and me be your root then. You couldn't say that nobody loves you, because you know it's a big lie. I'm ashamed of myself if I can't help you to stop cutting because if so, I'm not your angel or even a good friend. I was a tempered type of person but the temper is reducing. At least I'm not firing to everyone anymore. Because I know it brings no good. If you need a motivator, you know who to find. I'm never busy till I got no time to reply my lovelies. Hold on, life at home is soon to end. It takes time to stop a habit, but never stop trying. Less and less and you realize one day that you already stop doing it.

Burn the curtain that have been blocking your mind and let the power of light in. You know I love you Amy.

P/S: If you're stress out, stop for a second and think, if what bothering you will affect you in 5 years time, then you gotta do something about it. But if what bothering you will just affect you in 5 days time, then just put it aside and make joke out of it. :D

Promise?

1. 'I promise I won't leave you.'
2. 'I promise I will take care of you.'
3. 'I promise I won't hurt you anymore.'
4. 'I promise I will always love you.'
5. 'I promise I will change and be a better person.'

Words. Stop for a while and think. How convincing can promises be? When someone promise you this and that, at first you will doubt them based on your past experience. Right?

People said that words are cheap. Personally I think, just because some busted child didn't keep their words, so that's why words are cheap. Lets flip the coin. Since everyone is different, we can't accuse somebody for cheapen their words because some people really mean what they say and they really want to prove their words, but unfortunately they don't know how to. Really?

Yeah. Some people have a very low self esteem, they don't know how to act. In their mind they're afraid that they will get the negative feedback. This type of person actually need someone to motivate them. To find a really good motivator is quite hard. At the end of the day, the low self esteem guy/girl will just keep their intentions to themselves. Words are not proven. Can you blame them for that? Do they cheapen words on purpose? You tell me.

Hey, when you promise someone on whatever matter, it means that you believe you can do as what you've promised. I know that some people make promises because they want to convince people around them. They want to comfort them. Frankly, to me, promises are not convincing at all. I know you feel the same. ( I can see you nodding and muttering 'yesss'. HAHA )
So make sure that you are able to keep your promise before you promise anyone anything. Never abuse promises. You don't want to feel disappointed, do you? Then don't disappoint people around you unless you've been disappointed first by the same person.

In some cases like playboy or playgirl, promises to them are nothing. It's just like blowing candlelight on the cake. Promises are the candles and the soul is the cake. Just to satisfy the soul and to put a smile on somebody's face. The next minute, the candles will be pulled out from the cake. There goes the promises. Gone away.

If you love somebody, don't just on words. Anyone can talk but not everyone can show it in action. So say it and show it. There's nothing to regret as long as you've tried your best. :D

21st Ex-Boyfriend

You didn't apologize for what you've done
You never appreciate me and my effort
You can flirt with thousand girls and still act innocent
I thought we can be friends, that's what you wished for before
But your ego is controlling you.
You walk with pride, only you know what's inside
Your behavior is like a pain in the ass
I begged you not to leave me before
You even promised me that you won't leave
Now it's clear that your words worth nothing.
I won't beg you not to leave anymore
Because I know you don't love me no more
Since you have many girls in your stock
It'd be very dumb of me if I want to beg you again
If you wanna leave, that's okay with me
All the answers for my questions are well explained
The reason why you never want to call me,
Obviously you have to save your credit because there are many other girls in your client list
First you said you want me, and next you betrayed me
I had enough of your game
Remember that life is karma.
I sincerely wanted to help you, but you keep talking dude
What you know is to deny, why never want to clarify?
It is supposed to be like a merry-go-round
I tried to find the love that can never be found
You took me for granted, it's too late to be regretted
You played me well, I fell
I didn't cry this time, not at all
I hoped for you to changed, to grow up, I never gave up
I guess I thought wrong.
Run as far as you want, I won't catch you anymore.

P/S: You said you hate girls, but they are just gorgeous. Be a gay then, jerk.

P/S: What did girls do to you? Or specifically, what did I do till you hate girls? Nothing. You are the cause of everything.